Sometimes you think I love you a lot less than I say I do, but you have no idea how much I ready do love you, so let me clear things up for you.
As I've told you, my mind never stops racing about millions of things at a time, so to say you are the only thing that is ever on my mind would be a lie. However, you are always on my mind. I don't have a train of thought like most people do, I have an air port of though; right now there are about 3000 airplanes in flight. The biggest airplane though, is a private jet and inside is you and your batkitty and every memory I have of you and every thought of the future with you. I think about how we will meet for the first time in person, about how on that day I wont be able to talk, my voice lost because your beauty in person is just to overwhelming. I'll be as red as spilled blood and and shaking like a level 7 earthquake. When I finally get the courage to speak I'll stutter over every letter and you'll giggle because you think its cute when I stutter. The plane has taken a sharp turn and I'm thinking about the game room we will have when we live together. It will have so many posters, pokemon, Scott Pilgrim, Zelda, etc. and will have a master sword and shield hanging proudly on the wall (no, you're not allowed to touch the sword). I honestly don't remember how I started this letter and I think it would be cheating to go back and look, since I wanted this to be something I wrote from the heart, rather than something I sat and planned and made sure every word we perfect. Its more of me rambling than a letter, but you like it when I ramble, you say its the only time you get to know whats really going on in my mindso I'll keep rambling on for a while. It 6:47 and you've fallen asleep (which is good since I've been telling to to go to sleep for hours but I miss you). I'm not sure why I'm writing this, I just felt like I needed to get my feelings for you on paper. I mean, you wrote that adorable pokemon poem for me so I wanted to write something for you but I'm not great at poems, they're generally not how I get my feelings out. I mostly draw to get feelings out but I can never seem to draw anything that properly shows how much you mean to me. I'm hoping that this letter is good enough. I want everything I do and say to you to be perfect, but thats not going to happen because I don't usually think before I speak, so my words come out wrong a lot (the fact that you make me a bit nervous doesn't help my inability to speak correctly). I'm not quite sure how long this is and I don't want to reread what I've written because, as i said before, i want this to be something that comes straight from my mind and not something that I go back and edit so that it will be "perfect". No, this is from my heart and lung (hope you remember the lung thing, 'cause of you don't it'll just seem like I've gone more insane). Hm, I just looked at Lil Jord and now I'm thinking about you in a bow tie (mmmmmmmmmmmmm, such a lovely thought). Anyways, I think I was writing about how much I love you... or am I writing about how much you're on my mind?.. I can't remember. All I know is that I'm writing about you and I hope you like this once you read it. Omg, I'm suddenly really tired; I guess getting all my thoughts onto "paper" rather than having them fly around my head calmed my mind. As if my thoughts about how much I love you and our future together were keeping me awake. *yawns* Hm, I guess I should be concluding this letter soon so I can get some rest and be awake when you wake up.
In conclusion (yay for nerdy essay words), I love you and you may not alway be the only thing on my mind but you are always on my mind. Whether I'm thinking about how much I love you, how much I miss you or about how amazing it will be when we live together, you are ALWAYS, always, always on my mind.
Your's in eternity,
Park Alex L.
(P.S. I love you more